“I need my Own Sunshine”

    Its raining again in Delhi :) …a heartfelt relief for all the wretched souls. Unfortunately, my heart seems to miss the beat. Even those bright pearl shaped drops were not able to bring a smile to my face today. I am traversing through a crisis, crisis of my finding my real self, my happiness, my vocation. Wind tries to blow on my face, tries to convey those beautiful melodies in my ear, but perhaps I am lost. Lost like a child on a sea shore, wondering where is my favourite sea shell. till the time I will get mine, the melodies, the beat will do nothing to calm the perturbed soul.

let me put these thoughts behind for sometime and write something more positive and cheerful.

Delhi is a nice place to be, it has got life. You can actually hear her heart beat, if you get time to stand still and observe. It has its colors in the faces of the people, high rise buildings, tortuous roads, stillness of nights, extreme weathers, and never ending chaos. I am not in love with this city, but i can not stop admiring it. It is a big canvas in itself, and i am having fun spilling my colors in corner of this huge canvas.

I meet new faces almost daily. Every face has a story. I am weaving them all together. perhaps, some day i might need them all to craft a story of my own…..someday, somewhere!!!

Its Friday, a ritualistic day…..beginning of another weekend. Should i feel happy, elated…..:) I do not have feelings for this weekend. Perhaps the reason being there is nothing much to look forward to :) Taking life the way it is being offered daily, so i cannot complain.

Right now, what i will only ask myself is to be a bit more positive. The sun always comes up……….and what i really need now is a little bit of sunshine………..my own sunshine.

Amen , Almost Rhiannon

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Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

How can I love you How can I love you How can I love you How can I love you . . . .
[ Do You Know lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

If you just don’t talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that’s never happened to me.
But after this episode I don’t see, you could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know,
Do you know,
Do you know,

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Life Betrays :)

     ” Twists and Turns of Life, Who would not have seen this strife,

       As the hours , days and years passby, and the pain becomes sterile,

       The bitterness never ends though, for losing emotions so fertile,

       Who is to be blamed I ask, Is it Destiny?

       When i walked with my eyes closed, where was my faith,

       Today logic presides over me, and I do what I want,

       Fool myself endlessly, cross the deserts undaunt,

      I think I am happy enough, then why my heart does not sing,

      the melody, the music, the flutter, the beat, i guess something is missing,

      He the fool who wants agony, above anything on earth,

      Is the fool of the rarer kind, who will not get heaven or hearth,

      If you have all going for you, and the time just asks you to wait,

     and promises you all the blessed things, and rescue you from the ill fate,

     why does your heart envisions, that you are taken for a ride,

     your faith and heart will be betrayed again, life will march in its own stride.”Abstract Life from Ndesign Studio - subject to copyright

My Den Revamped

Yesterday, after almost a long hiatus, i revamped my room. It had turned in to a dumping ground almost for everyone in the house. :) Blue walls, Blue linens, with equally eye catching book-filled shelves in the corner have actually turned the place in to a relaxing zone. My table is again visible, asloads and loads of trash paper carved with my doodles and scribblings have found their way for shredding. I have placed two pics on my desk top, one containing the 18 year ols pic of Mom with we three cracked nuts. (My bro, sis , and myself), another one is from an award ceremony in my college………which one i have lost the track :D (as there are too many). My laptop is still on the way, so i might be able to fondle it only by the end of this week. Life in the office is as usual, bore might be a very cliche word to describe it!!! :(  In the span of last 10 days I have alraedy finished 6 classics……and there are still 4 on which i can gorge upon. With already a tycoon of events witnessed in the last two months, i would not like to complain if this month tags itself as uneventful. Scrapping after a long time, that too from office so mind is already under the temperature conditions of 16 degree centigrade :D …..Probably will scribble more when i am back to teh senses……..Got an interesting link to the women entrepreneurship….” http://www.businessweek.com/smallbiz/content/mar2007/sb20070315_768885.htm” …work beckoning……..signing off for now :) ….!!! Almost Rhiannon