What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now….:)
I don’t exactly remember who said this; but the words are definitely profound. Can’t imagine, how time passes by you, so quietly, so quickly. Almost like 3 and a half months after the catastrophe, turbulent times, on the cost of my health and happiness, futile effort to be social, hiding my truest emotions, and after almost an hiatus, for the first time I have a sense of peace inside. I knew till the time I can feel everything around me, it would be difficult to be healed. Shunned away help from family and friends – but they stood by me! I feel blessed. But above all, I think we all humans need to feel the sense of gratitude. Sometimes the greatest of adversity help you unleash unknown powers within yourself; and I did that in this time.
Without any guilt, perhaps It is easy to admit now that I feel nothing inside, and this time I mean it. Time to let the most important people (my folks) know this good news, since it will be a beginning of new things and a better life ahead!
Don’t you think it is much neater and better to make mark on a blank slate rather the one that is messed up with thoughts and letters!
No wonder despite a horrendous cold, I smiled in the mirror at the way I looked! Boy, I look awesome when I am happy!
” Life’s not always fair. Sometimes you can get a splinter even sliding down a rainbow….but then do you stop having fun? you run back again to have another slide ride!!”
Yup, Life is not fair, if you look from a tinted glass. Even I feel so, but I choose not to complain. There is hardly anything that you receive by standing on the complaint-counter.
Past six months have been both hard-pressing and rewarding. Have met so many people in this span that I am amazed by my social skills. But, somehow I can not find a single piece in which I can find my own reflection. Everyone is unique….Moreover, when you step out from the realms or boundaries of college (read graduation), things are never the same. You make friends – but not life long ones. You love to talk to people but till the time you can share your happiness or new ideas with them. People prefer to move around with a mask; never showing their truest emotions; preferring to keep ’safe’ distance! So, the end result is cord is there but the tunes are missing! I find it hard to be like that! Either I do not allow people to enter the sphere where they could know me; and God forbid if I do allow, I find it hard not to care for them; not to worry about them; and not to lend the helping hand and patient ear when they need it (even though they deny the need)!
Been torn in this dilemma and I hope to find a solution to this ‘d’ soon!
End to another not so adventurous day! I desperately need this weekend for myself…..Ahoy! come soon!
- Rhiannon
Let me tell you something – the most incredible, astounding, and yet overtly exaggerated thing in the World is Love. Nevertheless, it is the only thing, worth fighting for, worth dying for, and worth wasting your Life for! So, even if you get a single opportunity to experiment with this crazy thing – don’t think twice, just jump, and let go! Trust me, down the years, you will love to tell your children about this once in a lifetime experiment.
- Rhiannon
November is ending, finally. If someone throws a question that out of the twelve which one is my favorite, I know it has to be November (February is going to be very angry, if he gets to know this )!
Simply because, this is a month that gives you time to look back and see what all has gone in a year; unlike December when you are already on the verge of entering a brand New Year.
This is the month of restoration, healing, letting go off past, contemplating, thinking, stirring thoughts, and planning.
Wonder, why ‘forgiving’ never made to the above list!
I am thankful to few people who helped me sail through this month called November and above all helped in preventing this month turning into a ‘Sour November’, per say!
Don’t know, if I would have successfully attempted my exams without any distractions or wandering thoughts if I would not have talked to these people in the wee hours of night. Time to say ‘Thank you’ again.
After almost a spinning, activity filled week, when the Exams got over; now I am beginning to come back to senses and smell the morning air.
Saturday and Sunday went in the soul searching process and at least there are few things that I am absolutely positive about:
1. If I had an eraser; I would completely wipe this year from my Life book; but because I can not; Will keep this saved in my memories as a lesson for my children;
2. I am stronger and better than what I thought about myself;
3. I have tried hard to act like a saint but in vain I realized; I am not capable of forgiving; not my cup-of-tea;
4. Good things happen to good people and god forbid I have never been in the bad category so better times are ahead. My eyes are fixed on the horizon……happiness could not be far or can it be?
So, as I transcend into the next month which is going to be more action packed here I bid this sweet month, Goodbye; till I see it again in 2010 and hopefully a lot more would have changed by then! Amen!
- Rhiannon
yes, it’s true…and that’s we have so called mood swings. After a pretty decent exam, I should rather have been in a jubilant state of mind but guess the problem is with our art of anchoring! We base our happiness on factors which are purely external and are rather unpredictable, to say at least.
So, when you put your key to happiness in someone else’ pocket, you are bound to be disappointed.
Been thinking for almost an hour, is this some kind of signal from the Universe. You set your heart on a wish, target or anything and whooooosssshhhhh there are 100s of others who want the same – the same apple, pie, whatever you want to call it. Damn!
It can be very frustrating at times but then it is very profound and something that can teach you a lot in the process.
So, whenever I start basing my source of happiness on something; I am whipped and told to look ahead! But how long is this going to happen – Klueless!
Two exams are over, three more to go and then I have to do some soul searching and gearing up for the next task bound in December.
Wish I am not distracted in this period….may be when these tiring exams are over; I will find my creative calling and will spill here more often!
Amen
P.S. Enjoyed taking my exam today (Organizational Behavior) since this is the only paper in which I did my favorite activity – read articles from Harvard Business Review.
“I don’t need to fall at your feet
Just ’cause you cut me to the bone
And I won’t miss the way that you kiss me
We were never carved in stone
If I don’t listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
I’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
’cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
I am the king of wishful thinking
I refuse to give in to my blues
That’s not how it’s going to be
And I deny the tears in my eyes
I don’t want to let you see.. no
That you have made a hole in my heart
And now I’ve got to fool myself..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
I’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
’cause I’m the king of wishful thinking..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
I’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
’cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
I will never, never shed a tear for you
I’ll get over you
If I don’t listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
I’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
’cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
I’m the king of wishful thinking
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
But I won’t shed a tear for you
I’ll be the king of wishful thinking
I’ll get over you..
I’ll pretend my heart’s still beating
’cause I’ve got no more tears for you
I’m the king of wishful thinking..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
’cause I’m the king of wishful thinking“
- Go West – King of Wishful Thinking – Album: Pretty Woman
Finally, November is here. And the writing spree is renewed as this month begins. After a hiatus of almost a month, it’s difficult to find words for the expressions. So will keep the thoughts saved till the time I find the rhythm back….With an article on Leadership underway, exams round the corner, loads of uncooked plans in the head, surely there are more things to spill in the coming times, Stay tuned!
Google can actually tell you what branding is about! Never have seen a brand making an effort to keep tab of everything – even the fact that it has been 57 odd years when the first patent on Bar Code was granted! Amazing!
It’s nice to amaze yourself at times by doing things that you would not have thought about ever. And this time I did these:
1. Talked for over an hour on phone after almost a month in the wee hours of night! And I had promised this is never ever going to happen. It’s amazing how things change, and so quickly! Is this what they call time is the best teacher and healer
2. Have you ever brushed and painted your toe nails at the same time! I did that today morning! In an attempt to squeeze time for grooming in my busy schedule; I was able to paint the nails as well as get an awesome ‘Mehndi’! Who says life can’t be fun? This girl is definitely not complaining! Life is finally changing for good!
One of my favorite song by Lee Womack -
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you’ll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they’re worth taking
Lovin’ might be a mistake
But it’s worth making
Don’t let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you’ll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance……..:)
Watching "P.S. I Love You"; Crying for over an hour now ://! 2 months ago
Long vknd ahead :) Feeling high after a long time.Ready for the roller-coaster yet amazing time life is about to offer in next two months!:) 2 months ago
I feel blessed. But above all, I think we all humans need to feel the sense of gratitude. Sometimes the greatest of adversity help you unleash unknown powers within yourself; and I did that in this time.
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Rhiannon
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